There is a feeling of uneasiness,
Each one of us knows it.
We know it’s the right path,
We know it’s the right time,
And yet…our hearts are heavy.
All the goodbyes (see you later)
Each one of the hugs, prayers, and best wishes reminds me of one thing.
This person who leaves is not the same person coming home.
But there is another feeling I am experiencing…
There is a feeling of urgency,
A need to follow what God is calling us to do.
To go…
Not to leave, but to go to people.
Go hear their story and tell them about my savior.
A man who came on this earth,
Knowing He would be killed on the cross.
Showing His love by accepting our pain and wrongdoings on that tree.
Why? to give us freedom
Freedom from pain, from hurt
Freedom to be loved.
There is uneasiness
There is urgency
There is sadness
There is excitement
These feelings are overwhelming,
but THE LORD, He is my rock
He is the reason
The reason I have new life,
Have FREEDOM and LOVE
The reason I am going,
To show His love, forgiveness and strength.
I know this will not be easy
but He has called US,
He has called me.
To go and tell people the good news.
There is a feeling of urgency.
My squad and I leave tomorrow morning for the airport to be out of the US for 11 months where we will be away from family, friends and all of the comforts of home.
Yesterday I said goodbye, or see you later, to my parents and it’s crazy, hard and exciting to think of being out of the US for that long.
This poem that I wrote shows just a little glimpse of my feeling and what has been going through my mind these last few days.
I’m very excited to continue this journey and please know this is not my journey alone. Each one of you has the opportunity this year to really press into God and all He has for you, in the states or out. I hope you take that opportunity!
I hope and pray that this year you take every moment to grow in all God wants for you.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for all of your support (both financially and spiritually). Please continue to be praying for my squad, my team, my family, me and the people we will meet.
God Bless and Much Love,
Bethaney
P.S. Thank you for reading this long post!
This was beautiful! It was encouraging, especially “Not to leave but to go to people!” Not to leave but to go. Excited to see how God uses your gift for poetry over the next few months. Thank you for sharing.
You are wise and mature beyond your years Beth. God has obviously called you for a reason…He knows the impact you will have in furthering His kingdom. We will be praying for you and everyone you will come into contact with…praying their hearts are being prepared even know. Love you Beth…and incredibly proud of you.
Uncle Ryan
Bethie,
You got this & you’ve got God.
Looking forward to hearing and seeing (pics) your journey’s.
Prayers & Positive thoughts for you and all those involved with you here and there.
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Luv you ~ Auntie Janie
Wow, I think poetry is one of your gifts Beth! I’ve read many of your writings before, and this especially touched my heart. So proud of you honey! You have done amazing things in Gods name and we love you so much and yet just a speck compared to God’s love for you – I know you know this. Your compassion and care for people is precious. Take care, Miss you, Love you! Memom & Dadtoo ????
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Beth,
Your words testify that you are just where our Lord’s will desires you to be for just such a time as this. God’s will never leads us where his grace cannot keep us. Praying.
Hey Beth:
I just wondering how your trip going? Hope all is good for you. As I will be praying for our Lord Jesus will be with you throughout your journey. He will guide and direct you whatever reason he preparing you for his purpose. Be encouraging and strong in every situation that you faces. I miss you my friend:-).
Linda
I love this & love you Bethie! Can’t wait for more. Praying & thinking of you every day. Thank you for being His hands & feet. ?
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Thank you for sharing your heart here! Looking forward to reading many more blogs and getting to know you better. Can’t wait to see you very soon at debrief!
Thank you uncle Ryan, love you too.
Hope to post more pictures from the journey in the next few weeks, God’s definitely been with us throughout it all, even the crazy last week.
Honestly it’s usually the only way I can truly express my emotions most of the time so thankful He has given me an avenue for it. Love you too
Thank you Sheri, and so true His grace is the reason any of this is possible. Hope all is well with you!
Love you too
Hi Linda! Thank you for praying for my journey, many changes but still on it with Him 🙂
Your poetic ability is very good. The message is excellent. You are a very talented young lady through which there is promise of much gain to be seen in your mission. May God use you to find great blessings for those you go to reach. And, may he give you the strength, health and safety to deliver the message He has placed on your heart.